Ireland Baldwin Reveals She Suffered from Anxiety, Thanks Fans for Support: 'I'm Happy to Feel Like Ireland Again'

Ireland Baldwin Reveals She Suffered From Anxiety, Thanks Fans on Instagram
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08/05/2015 AT 10:50 AM EDT

Ireland Baldwin is finally feeling like herself again.

The 19-year-old model took to Instagram on Tuesday to share an important message with her fans, revealing that she suffered from anxiety and has "relearned what it truly means and what it feels like to be truly present."

"There are so many moments I have taken for granted in this life due to my lack of presence," she wrote as the caption to the post, which includes a photo of a beach at sunset. "I have overlooked countless blessings and opportunities to start fresh, and I have neglected, manipulated, and lied to the people I hold dear to my heart, but more importantly, to myself. It hasn't been until recent months that I relearned what it truly means and what it feels like to be fully present. For the longest time, I lost compassion towards almost everything i previously cared for and I was so lost in darkness, that I could hardly hold a real conversation with another human being long enough before I was due to have an anxiety attack and find my way out of it."

There are so many moments I have taken for granted in this life due to my lack of presence. I have overlooked countless blessings and opportunities to start fresh, and I have neglected, manipulated, and lied to the people I hold dear to my heart, but more importantly, to myself. It hasn't been until recent months that I relearned what it truly means and what it feels like to be fully present. For the longest time, I lost compassion towards almost everything i previously cared for and I was so lost in darkness, that I could hardly hold a real conversation with another human being long enough before I was due to have an anxiety attack and find my way out of it. Tonight, I found myself pausing, multiple times, to look to my right and left and I continuously asked myself... How the hell did I get lucky enough to end up here? Why me? Why the past couple of months have I had the chance to meet the most phenomenal souls? Why are all these people giving me a chance to begin again? After all my wrongdoings and heartbreaks and trauma and absence of self, how am I here today? I just wanted to take a moment to show gratitude to everyone who has continued to stand by my side through all that took place and through all that life will continue to throw at me. I'm proud to say I will not be knocked down and alone next time around. I have never been so supported and felt so loved in my life. I'm happy to say I feel like Ireland again and it's amazing that I can actually say that because it's been a really long time and I was starting to forget what she was like. I love my friends, I love this beautiful planet, and I love new beginnings. • and I love you all for making me feel beautiful and supported every single day!

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She went on to thank those who have supported her and express her excitement about this "new beginning."

"I just wanted to take a moment to show gratitude to everyone who has continued to stand by my side through all that took place and through all that life will continue to throw at me. I'm proud to say I will not be knocked down and alone next time around. I have never been so supported and felt so loved in my life," she said. "I'm happy to say I feel like Ireland again and it's amazing that I can actually say that because it's been a really long time and I was starting to forget what she was like."

"I love you all for making me feel beautiful and supported every single day!" she concluded.

On April 13, Baldwin announced via Twitter that she had checked herself into a drug and alcohol facility treatment in Malibu, California, for "emotional trauma," saying that she "needed a breather" and some time to work on herself.

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Throughout her stay, Baldwin Tweeted about her family's support, thanking parents Kim Basinger and Alec Baldwin, who divorced in 2002.

She checked out of the rehab center three weeks later, and a source told PEOPLE at the time that she "will still participate in the facility's programs."

Most recently, Baldwin signed with DT Model Management (she was formerly signed to IMG Models), and put her modeling skills to the test for some fun with dad in a hilarious red carpet pose-off.
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