Jillian Michaels Says Her Recent Comments About Being Gay and Out Were Misunderstood
10/18/2014 AT 05:45 PM EDT
"I am deeply disheartened and sorry to hear that members of the gay community have misunderstood the points I was trying to make about being 'out,' " Michaels, 40, tells PEOPLE in an exclusive statement.
In her interview, Michaels, who has two children with partner Heidi Rhoades, told Health: "The 'gay' thing has always been hard for me … When Heidi and I are out and somebody older asks, 'Are you sisters?' I say, 'We're friends.' "
"Look, I wish I had some strapping football player husband," she continued. "It would be such a dream to be 'normal' like that, but I'm just not."
As for those remarks, Michaels says in her statement to PEOPLE: "I attempted to shed light on how hard and scary it can be to be out. That gay families get attacked and even small daily interactions involve others being 'shocked and disturbed' by the gay lifestyle."
In closing, she says: "I was saying if along the way in my life that had been a choice I would have made it, but it's not who I am. Gay is not a choice. If I was ashamed of who I am, I would be in the closet. Considering my family was on the cover of PEOPLE magazine, I think I'm pretty far from that."