Married at First Sight's Jamie Hehner Takes Emotional Trip to the Trailer Where She Grew Up: 'I Don't Know How I'm Going to Feel'
04/12/2016 AT 09:25 AM EDT
And on Tuesday's episode of Married at First Sight: The First Year, Hehner revisits her trailer with her sister, Leah – but this may be the last time she ever sees it.
"Leah and I are driving over to the trailer where we used to live because I'm selling it to an old family friend," Hehner says in a clip from episode, shared exclusively with PEOPLE. "There are a lot of memories here at this trailer and some of them are good and a lot of them are really hard and they're not good at all, and the last time I was here I really just lost it."
And this time, her husband Doug Hehner is not by her side to comfort her.
"It's so unfortunate that I had to come up in the middle of the week because Doug has to work, and last time he was such a strong comfort to me," she says. "I'm trying not to make assumptions based on his absence. Just like Dr. Levkoff and Dr. Pepper have been saying, just because he's not here doesn't mean he doesn't prioritize me."
While the circumstances surrounding Hehner and her family living in the trailer were "hard" and "sad," giving up her old home is still "so crazy" for her to think about.
"I'm a little worried going back to my trailer because I don't know how I'm going to feel," says Hehner. "I want it to be happy. This is giving someone a home when they need it, and that's what the trailer did for me and this is a happy moment, but I don't know how I'm going to feel when I get back there."
Married at First Sight: The First Year airs Tuesdays (at 9 p.m. ET) on FYI.