 |
But I'd gained 50 lbs. in the last year. One of my dearest friends was on that trip, and she sat me down and asked the question, "What are you going to do about your weight?" When such a friend confronts you, you have to stop pretending everything is fine. I thought about how difficult it was in church when I wanted to stand and sing out for God, but my knees hurt. I thought about the mail I received – some mean, sure, but most concerned because they could hear me breathing hard when I spoke on The View. The summer before, when I'd gone to Paris, I couldn't walk from the plane to the terminal without getting winded, having an anxiety attack, and needing my inhalers. I didn't even feel like shopping – and that was serious. Girl, I looove shopping.
Other things [in my life] were not terrific, as well. I had a goal: I wanted to find my life mate. [But] you can't ask for Denzel Washington if you're walking around looking all busted. I was too heavy. Say it, Star – I was obese. We weren't talking 20 lbs., we were talking more than 100. My chest hurt. My back ached. When I sat on a beach, I had to think about did I really have to go to the bathroom, because I knew I'd get so tired walking to the clubhouse. I just didn't feel good.
JOSH & FERGIE: ROCKED BY SCANDAL
Did he cheat with a stripper?
Married less than a year, the couple denies an Atlanta woman’s claims that she and Josh had a fling
Note that this week’s cover of PEOPLE may differ regionally
