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It was just the way it should have been. You know, I love women. I've definitely, you know, been with women. And I've had great relationships with them where I was definitely in love. It's just I grew to a point where deep inside I knew that I could never really truly have a relationship with a woman. I don't know if they ever suspected. It was never brought up. And it was so easy, especially being on the road, because you never got to spend much time together. It was like, "Yeah, that's my girlfriend. Whenever I get to see her, great. We date, we have fun. But I'm always on the road."
Did you tell your bandmates?
No, none of the guys. Some of the guys of course suspected because we were like brothers, so when you're with someone that much, they're like, "Why aren't you hitting on women all the time and acting like a rock star?" Because I was a good Christian boy, that's why.
Do all the guys now know?
Joey was the first to find out. I was at my house in Orlando like five years ago, and I was actually dating someone at the time – a guy – it was the first person I ever dated, which was very strange. I was just in my office and Joey walked in and kind of saw us way closer than friends would be, just standing really close. And he was like, "Oh, sorry!" I knew at that moment that he knew. I told him and he was like, "Dude, I don't care."
So did you reach out to the others?
Chris finally asked me last summer, and I just told JC three months ago. I'm pretty sure they all knew and they all probably talked to each other, but they had the respect to let me tell them. I haven't had the conversation with Justin yet. I know he knows but I've never really sat him down and said it. I will be calling him.
