Tori Spelling to Write Memoir
12/04/2006 AT 07:45 AM EST
Simon & Schuster will publish the book by the former Beverly Hills 90210 star and expectant mom, who is due this spring. The collection of recollections will be complied when "the baby is napping," Spelling tells USA Today, and will likely be done with the help of a ghostwriter.
Spelling, 33, had yet to inform her family, with whom she's had a tense relationship, about the book. According to the newspaper, she planned to tell brother Randy Spelling, 28, over the weekend. (She described her relationship with him as only "okay")."I certainly hope that (the book) doesn't cause more damage," says Tori.
"Randy's kind of caught in the middle because he has a very close relationship with my mother and a very close relationship with me. He tries to stay neutral, and I admire him for that," she adds.
As for mother Candy Spelling, Tori says: "I wish things were different. My mother and I have always had a difficult relationship. There has always been love, and I don't doubt now that there's love."
In an exclusive statement to PEOPLE on Oct. 6, grandmother-to-be Candy said: "I'm thrilled and ecstatic (about the pregnancy), and if Aaron (Spelling, the family patriarch) were here, I know how thrilled he would also be to share in such a happy occasion."
Of reconciling with her mother, Tori tells USA Today: "I do hope for that."
Though Tori has not kept a diary over the years – the anecdotes are "only in my head," she says – she still has "a million stories to tell." Among the topics she plans to cover in the book are plastic surgery ("I basically want to lay it out in my terms"), past relationships ("I want to clear up that I was never in a physically abusive relationship, but verbal abuse is just as detrimental"), and her treatment in her father's last will and testament.
When the TV mogul died on June 23 at 83, he left behind an estate estimated to be worth more than $300 million. But Tori was to inherit "less than $1 million" in cash and stocks, a source close to the actress told PEOPLE at the time.
Of reports about her finances, she says: "You have to take everything with a grain of salt. I'm not ashamed to admit that circumstances have changed, and you work with things the best you can. It's important for me to tell people about the struggles. I found that money can't buy love, and (Dean and I) can get through anything."