03/20/2007 at 10:35 AM EDT
Confessing that she's been through a "rough month," Pamela Anderson says she intends to remain a single mom for the sake of her two sons.
"I've tried to remarry – move on – like any other single mom I've tried to create a healthy example for my kids always," Anderson writes in a new posting on her online diary
"That's why I realized early on that we are better off on our own right now," says Anderson, 39, whose divorce from Kid Rock
after a four-month marriage became official on Feb. 1.
While she says her sons with first husband Tommy Lee – Brandon, 10, and Dylan Jagger, 9 – are "completely well adjusted and happy and thriving," Anderson says their dad "has been in their lives in a productive but small way over the years."
Of Lee, she also says she intends to "work on our friendship if nothing else with their father who's admittedly made mistakes but adores us."
Professionally, Anderson says she is set to head back to the beach for a new show from the makers of Baywatch
, to be called Malibu
– which she describes as "Flamingo Kid
"I can't say no to the guys from Baywatch
– they are great to my kids – my schedule is built around theirs – just a few days a week – I'm close to home," she says.
And in the bad news, good news department, Anderson writes of losing her 17-year-old golden retriever, Star, who died on March 18. "He has been with me since his birth," she says, "as long as I've been in LA."
But then, the good news: A new puppy, named Jo-Jo, has already been found.