07/20/2007 at 10:55 AM EDT
Tammy Faye Messner, whose inoperable cancer
has reduced her to 65 lbs., says she has asked her doctors not to tell her how much time she may have left.
"I don't want my faith level to go down," she told Larry King on his show Thursday. At the prospect of facing death, "I'm concerned," she admits, "but I don't fear."
In the interview, which was taped in her Kansas City home Wednesday – with Messner still sporting her trademark eye makeup and often-mischievous sense of humor – the evangelist, 65, says she is headed to a better place.
"I believe when I leave this earth, because I believe in the Lord, I'm going straight to heaven," she says.
Is she scared? "A little bit. For my children, mostly."
Her desire to be cremated, as opposed to being buried in the ground, she explains with a laugh, is because "I don't want bugs in me."
This week Messner posted a message on her Web site
in which she expressed her craving for a hamburger with ketchup. King asked if she has managed such a meal.
"I can't eat it," Messner says (and which can be seen in a video clip from CNN.com.
) "All I eat is chicken soup and rice pudding. But I'm looking forward to the day when I can bite into that hamburger and those fries."
She is under hospice care, she explained to King, meaning someone is always there to assist her. She is also on a morphine drip to deal with the constant pain in her back. The cancer is in her lungs, she says, adding, "I'm doing pretty good, consider the circumstances."
That she remains upbeat, she says, has to do with the fact "I talk to God every single day, and I say, 'God, my life is in your hands, and I trust you with me.' "
To her fans, she says, "I'd like to say that I genuinely love you, and I genuinely care, and I genuinely want to see you in heaven some day. I want you to find peace, and I want you to find joy."
Asked for what she'd like to be remembered, Messner responded with a giggle, "My eyelashes." She then added, "No. My walk with the Lord."