'I've Been on a Diet Since I Was 12'
updated 06/11/2007 AT 01:00 AM EDT
•originally published 06/11/2007 AT 01:00 AM EDT
It's an awareness she has never lost; in fact, Francis, now 45, admits that her physical appearance "has been a lifelong obsession and battle"—one fueled by the pressure to be thin when she began starring on the daytime soap General Hospital in 1976. Even though she weighed less than 120 lbs., at age 15 she faced a "mortifying" storyline: Her character, Laura, was put on a diet, which Francis felt was a signal from the show's producers to lose weight. She then tried a liquid diet on her own. "Already I was engaging in dangerous, reckless dieting behavior," says Francis, adding that she later "made myself ill" at the thought of having to wear a leotard in a scene with exercise guru Richard Simmons. "It was just an ongoing thing that I didn't look good enough," says Francis. "I have that in my heart today. It hurts."
Which is why she has decided—very publicly—to make what may be her final attempt at losing weight. "As I've gotten older, there's been a sort of giving up," she admits. "But I'm unhappy being a size 12. It's the only thing that bothers me." On May 21 the 5'4" Francis became a spokeswoman for the Medifast weight-loss program (see box), hoping to lose 30 lbs. within a year and slim down enough to "feel pretty" when she walks the red carpet at the Daytime Emmy Awards on June 15. (She's nominated for outstanding supporting actress for her guest stint last fall on GH.) "This is the first time I've been nominated and able to go," she says, "and I want to feel proud."
That feeling has been a long time coming. Francis says that throughout her career on GH, "People were calling me chubby," even though she was a size 2 to 4. Adds Denise Alexander, who played Francis's mother on the show: "I never remember her being heavy except in her thinking that she was too heavy for the work she was doing." Then, in the early 1980s, Francis became hooked on cocaine and alcohol. "I definitely have a compulsive personality," she says, adding that her substance-abuse problems prompted her to leave the show in 1982.
After turning to support groups for help, Francis managed to stay sober for two decades. But out of work in 2002 and living in London with her husband, Jonathan Frakes, 54, best known for playing Commander Riker on Star Trek: The Next Generation, and their children, Jameson, 12, and Eliza, 10, "I did not know what to do with myself, and I had a slip," she says. "I thought, 'I can have a glass of wine with dinner and go home.' But I couldn't."
A 21-day stint in rehab got her back on track—but also left her at a size 16, because "if you can't have a drink, you're in the Häagen-Dazs," she explains. And yet her husband insists, "She's a good-looking woman at any size!" adding, "I don't see that she has 30 lbs. to give, but I'm supportive and keeping sugar out of the house."
That kind of love has seen Francis through her lowest moments, like not having her GH guest contract renewed last fall. "I went through the sadness of that and stopped dieting," says Francis, who had hired a trainer and stuck to a 1,200-calorie-a-day diet to get in shape for the show. "I'm one to eat emotionally." No wonder then that Francis says the Medifast deal is "like the universe saying, 'Keep going, Genie.'" (She is also working out with her trainer three to four times a week.)
And with her clothes already "much looser," the actress has made a bold decision for her Daytime Emmys dress. "Everybody thinks if you wear black, you're trying to look thin," she says, smiling. "I'm wearing berry red!"