02/27/2006 at 01:00 AM EST
Professional lumberjack and logroller Tina Scheer, 45, the first to be voted out of Panama, never shared her full story with the castaways. Originally picked for Survivor: Guatemala last year, she was preparing for her trip South when her 16-year-old son, Charlie, died in a car crash. Filming in Panama last fall, "the women were like, "Do you have children?' I said, "No.' I didn't want it to be a factor." Back home in Wisconsin, the divorcée will soon get back into her lumber sports. "Am I going to spend my life in despair? No. I will attack everything I can with great fervor in Charlie's honor."