11/14/2007 at 01:00 PM EST
In a sweeping new interview Nicole Kidman
revisits her divorce from Tom Cruise
and its aftermath, her relationship with her kids, and her guarded hopes for having a child with Keith Urban.
On her 2001 divorce, she tells with Marie Claire
in its December issue: "I practically shed everything when I got divorced. I have an art collection that I put in storage, and that's where it stays. I really don't have a lot of things."
On helping their children Isabella, now 14, and Connor, now 12, through the breakup: "My daughter and son, their life is molded by the way I live. If I wasn't willing to take on that responsibility, I shouldn't have adopted them. Then it can be argued that you shouldn't have gotten divorced, and that's true, too, but sometimes you don't have a decision in that. People fall out of love, they do."
On the kids living most of the year in L.A. with Cruise and his family: "When children are teenagers, they have a say in where they want to be. L.A. is a big draw, and I'm looking to get a place there so we can share more."
On the kids' upbringing: "Yes, they're being raised as Scientologists. ... I don't want to go there."
On turning 40 this past June: "Yippee! I can't believe I made it. It feels like a long haul to get here. I'm so fine with it. People want you to have some sort of breakdown, but I'm relieved to be 40 years old, and I've lived a life."
On having a child with husband Keith Urban: "What will be will be. It's in God's hands."