Liv Tyler in UK's Harper's Bazaar
Courtesy Harpers Bazaar
09/09/2008 at 11:00 AM EDT
Liv Tyler is opening up about the breakup of her marriage – a painful experience that she is still struggling to come to terms with.
"For the first time in my life, it's so much harder for me to get up and brush [off] my knees," the actress tells U.K.'s Harper's Bazaar
in its October issue. "I am feeling the pain and the loss of everything," she says candidly about her split last spring
with her husband, British musician Royston Langdon.
Coming to terms with the end of her five-year marriage has not been easy for the actress, despite her seemingly serene nature. "I don't feel calm and collected. I feel neurotic, like Woody Allen," says Tyler, 31. "I'm a Cancer and sometimes I just feel like a crab without a shell."
Tyler who lives in New York City with the couple's three-year-old son Milo, has her own theory when it comes to healing. "I am trying to just let myself feel it," she says. "I think you have to mourn and you have to feel that pain."
For now, dating remains far from Tyler's mind. In fact, the actress says she can't even remember the last time she had a romantic kiss. "I kiss Milo on the lips all the time but I haven't had a kiss
kiss for a very long time," she reveals.
On what lies ahead for the actress, Tyler says she is optimistic: "I'm trying to just take one day at a time and be the best mom I can – but it is a strange time, like walking down the road with nowhere to go ... We'll see where it takes me."