11/12/2008 AT 01:30 PM EST
Former American Idol
contestant Paula Goodspeed, whose car was found outside Paula Abdul
's house with a body inside
, expressed great admiration for Abdul at the Season 5 audition.
"I really like Paula Abdul a lot. She's really cool," said Goodspeed when asked about her inspiration during the Idol
audition process. "I'm a really big fan, and I made life-sized drawings of Paula. I've been drawing ever since I was a little kid, and my first drawing was of Paula Abdul."
Goodspeed, dressed in shades of pink for her audition, sang "Proud Mary" before Abdul, Randy Jackson and Simon Cowell – but did not make it to Hollywood. Her performance was panned.
"I'm sorry, Paula," said Abdul.
"It's not over," said Goodspeed at the time. "I'm not going to stop singing just because you don't like my voice."Who's your Favorite Star Under 35? PEOPLE.com and the People's Choice Awards are counting your votes! Click here to vote now!