Mariska Hargitay Hoping for Second Baby
12/02/2008 AT 05:10 PM EST
"I just want to see my kid," the 44-year-old actress, who is mom to son August, 2, says in the January issue of Ladies' Home Journal.
Or maybe some maternity leave in the future would more appropriate. Hargitay says that she and husband Peter Hermann are "trying" to have another child and expand their family.
Despite her successful career and family life, Hargitay didn't always feel so confident. She thinks of herself as a late bloomer.
"I'm so grateful I was given these opportunities at a point in my life when I could really handle it all," she says, referring to her show, her charity organization for rape victims, Joyful Heart, and her family. "I got my gig late, got married late, had my kid late – and none of it came a minute too soon."
Why does she think she's such a late bloomer?
"I just didn't think I was very good," she explains.
Losing her famous mother, actress Jayne Mansfield, in a deadly car crash at age 3 also left her feeling vulnerable.
"All my life I'd had this problem with following through, not feeling that I was worth it," she says. "Not having a mother makes you think, 'If only I'd been better, she wouldn't have left me.'"
But becoming a mother herself has been her greatest joy, says Hargitay, who calls son August "the oxygen in my water."
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