Katie Holmes on the cover of New York Times Magazine
12/04/2008 at 12:00 PM EST
As part of one of Hollywood's most watched couples, Katie Holmes
lives an incredibly high-profile life – but says many people still have the wrong idea about her.
"There's a misperception about me that I just became this wallflower, this woman who doesn't have any control of her life," the 29-year-old actress tells the T: The New York
Times Style Magazine
in the issue hitting newsstands Sunday. "And that's pretty wrong. From the very beginning, I've made choices in my life that have been very strong. "
Holmes, who married Tom Cruise
in Italy in 2006
after a whirlwind romance, says that she had a girlhood crush on her now husband, and was surprised how down-to-earth he was in person.
"When I met Tom I was completely in love and, yes, I admired him growing up – he's Tom Cruise! … When I met him, he was so warm and I thought, Wow! You can be a superstar and a human being. He made me feel so amazing."
Cruise, 46, who is also interviewed in a separate Q&A in the Times Style Magazine
, also addresses his early relationship with Holmes. "I knew I wanted to marry Kate when I met her," he says. "After our very first date, I was sure. At one point, I thought she was going to ask me to marry her first and I cut her off by changing the subject. I wanted to ask her."
Asked if Holmes, who has a 2-year-old daughter Suri with Cruise, misses having a more anonymous existence, she says not at all. "My life has expanded. My family and friends are all part of this bigger life."
She maintains her happiness, she says, by tuning out a lot of the chatter about herself and the outside world. "I have too much to do," says Holmes who is currently starring on Broadway in All My Sons
. "I'm a mom and an actress with a play to do every night. I can't pay attention to all that noise."
Holmes and Cruise also participated in the Times' video Screen Test
2007: Katie steps out of Tom's shadow