Lily Allen Sobers Up
12/08/2008 AT 08:30 AM EST
"I've become a character in a comic … and that character is always drunk! I wish my comic character wasn't that," she told the U.K.'s Observer Music Monthly.
Allen claims she's been off alcohol "since 22 September," and doesn't plan on indulging again – at least for now.
"I have no intention of taking drugs again at the moment," she said. "But I can't say 'Never again,' because I don't know where I'll be in 10 years' time. And I will definitely drink in the future, just not for awhile."
Gearing up for the release of her second studio album It's Not Me, It's You, the 23-year-old continues to battle insecurities with her weight and appearance.
"My mum always told me, 'You're beautiful, you're my beautiful little girl,' and then suddenly I wasn't," she said. "I read all the stuff that people were writing about me and I started to get a different view. I mean, I never thought I was supermodel or anything, but I didn’t think I was quite as unattractive as people were saying!”
She adds, "I just thought, ‘Maybe if I'm not fat, then people won't call me ugly.’ ”
But what is she most afraid of? "When I'm playing live, I won't let anyone introduce me. I just appear," she said. "Because it's my biggest fear. Someone walking out on stage, saying 'Ladies and gentlemen, Lily Allen.' And then, 'Boooooooo!' "
Meanwhile in another interview, Allen said her friend Amy Winehouse – who she knows "very well," is different from how she's portrayed.
"[She’s] a very clever, intelligent, witty, funny person who can hold it together," she said. "You just don't see that side. She gets a really hard time."
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