Shanna Moakler Blogs About Split from Travis Barker
04/02/2009 AT 02:05 PM EDT
"I really thought the days of my personal relationship being played in the public eye were over," she writes. "Just so there is no confusion or 'source' to attack my character, I am saying my side."
As for when trouble started between Moakler and Barker, she says that while she was helping her ex recover from his September plane crash, "I came across numerous romantic emails with MANY other women, some famous, some I personally knew, all heart breaking." To the women involved, Moakler writes: "You know who you are and you should be ashamed of yourself."
She says she separated from Barker but hoped "we would remain friends and good parents."
But recent attacks on her character and claims in the press about her personal life – including rumors of an affair – prompted her to defend herself. "I am by no means an angel, and I have made many mistakes, but a woman can only turn her cheek so many times," she writes. " 'No comment' just wasn't sufficient this time when people continue to lie and distort the truth. It's sad and I wish it had been left behind closed doors. I am a human being and the bashing has taken its toll."