08/21/2009 at 07:00 PM EDT
The man who was wooing her is a fugitive wanted for murder and her show has been abruptly yanked off the air. For Megan Hauserman, star of VH1's Megan Wants A Millionaire
, the news of the last week has left her reeling.
"Megan is devastated," a close friend tells PEOPLE. "She got to know Ryan through her show, and she is shocked and saddened by the week's events."
Ryan Jenkins, 32, was a finalist on the VH1 show that attempted to pair the aspiring "trophy wife" with a millionaire.
Police allege he's the man who brutally murdered model Jasmine Fiore, chopping off her fingers and pulling out her teeth, then stuffing her nude body in a suitcase left in a Southern California Dumpster. An international manhunt
is underway for Jenkins, who may have slipped into his native Canada.
Even before he was charged, VH1 pulled the show off the air, and Hauserman can only follow developments with the rest of the world. "Right now Megan is taking comfort in her friends and keeping a close eye on news as this story unfolds," the friend says.