Big Brother's Kristen: Showmance Was Not a Mistake
You said you would never get into a showmance, and yet your relationship with Hayden ultimately brought about your eviction. What happened?
I knew that a showmance would be a huge distraction, and it definitely was not on my list of things to do in the house. I thought Hayden and I could take each other further in the game and I know you can't trust anyone in the house, but when I first met him I felt like he was somebody that I could at least confide in and that we would make a good team. Then I started to develop feelings for him and it all happened really, really fast.
Showmance aside, what was your biggest mistake in the house?
Aligning myself with Andrew was my worst move. I actually don't think aligning myself with Hayden was a bad thing. I should have just been more aware of what he was doing when I wasn't around.
Now that you know about the Brigade, have your feelings for Hayden changed?
I don't hold it against him that he was doing something without me. I really think that, even though he wasn't telling me everything, he was still looking out for my best interests ... He did say that if he had to choose between the alliance and me, that he would have chosen me.
Did you and Hayden really think that you were successful in hiding the feelings that you had for each other given the fact that you spent so much time in the same bed?
I never acted like I didn't like Hayden. I made it pretty well known that I was fond of him. I just didn't want to know the extent of our relationship because that would have put a target on us.
You have a boyfriend back home. What happens next? Do you and Hayden have a future?
If I were completely single and I met him on the outside then I think 100 percent we would have a future. But because we met under the circumstances we did, I question whether he felt the same way that I did. There's a lot of clearing up that needs to be done with him, and a lot of clearing up that needs to be done with my boyfriend.
What are you going to say to your boyfriend when you see him?
I was in a really unique situation that I never expected myself to be in. I just have to tell him the truth, and the truth is that I really developed feelings for this person and I'm at a standstill because I really don't know what to do with them.
You said in your plea speech that there were cowards in the house, who were you talking about?
I would definitely say that the biggest cowards in the house are Matt, Lane and Enzo. Rachel's a different story, because she wanted me out of the game for personal reasons, rather than strategic reasons, so she is a coward as well.
Rachel's goodbye message was pretty harsh. Where did that animosity come from?
Rachel is just a straight-up jealous bitch! I knew it from the very beginning when she wanted to be buddy-buddies with me. I don't think Rachel has real friends. I don't think Rachel has substance in her life outside the Big Brother house and that's why she is the way that she is.
Rachel is a two-time HOH, the Brigade has been kept a secret – who do you think is playing the strongest game. I really want to say that Ragan is, because he's my favorite player in the game right now. I think that he has a lot to figure out, but he has what it takes even though he's not necessarily the best player in the game. I think the best two players in the game right now are Lane and Hayden because they have a strong alliance and they have the floaters like Kathy and Britney who are out to support them.
Are you going to keep the tie-dyed unitard?
Of course I am! I left the house in a unitard and I think that's how I'm going to be remembered, so I have to keep it. I think that I rocked it, and I know that no one else in the house could have looked as good and dealt with the situation with the grace that I did.