04/02/2010 AT 12:00 AM EDT
Cue the scary music!
When Kate Gosselin
sat down to watch herself on Dancing with the Stars
' elimination night
this week, she says she saw someone playing the victim in a slasher film rather than a ballroom dancer.
"I've been told by more than one person ... that on the night of the first DWTS
elimination, the expression on my face looked like something out of a horror movie," Gosselin, 35, writes on her blog on TLC's Web site
. "I didn't realize this, obviously, until I saw it for myself ... and even I was a bit frightened."
The reality star says she's glad her eight little ones were already tucked in and didn't see the terrified look on her face, or they would have been spooked.
"Thank goodness my kids were in bed that night," she writes. "I didn't want them to watch just in case I was eliminated, but I had no idea I was inadvertently saving them from nightmares. All joking aside, I WAS scared to death!"
As it turned out, Gosselin was spared, and Charmed
actress Shannen Doherty
and her partner Mark Ballas got a ticket home
"I know that I am still a contestant on DWTS
solely because of my fans," Gosselin writes. "I have met many of you recently, while grocery shopping, at Target or in airports. I have a few words to my fans: Thank you all for your support, love, obsessive votes and verbal encouragement. I am seriously blown away by each and every one of you!!!!" --Catherine Donaldson-Evans