Tara’s Biggest Loser Blog: Abby Gets Her Life Back
10/28/2009 AT 12:00 AM EDT
So I will just get to the point where I personally absolutely lost it ... Abby! I can’t imagine losing my entire family. I mean that -- I can’t even picture it. I am happy that I can’t visualize this at all because after listening to Abby talk about her beautiful curly-red-headed daughter running to the car to give her a kiss and hug to make her feel better and then not even knowing that would be the last time she would ever see her again -- it just breaks me down.
Abby is a person who went on national television to truly get her life back. She demonstrated that by taking herself out of the game (although, in my opinion, it was too soon for her to go) because she thought she had made the real connection to living again. Good for Abby! I hope that she “lives” on and uses her experience to make others believe that you can overcome any obstacle in your life, big or small -- it is just a choice. On a side note, I wanted to point out that when Abby was telling her story it was quiet -- did you notice this? There is never a silent moment on the Biggest Loser as there's always background music. This is the first time I noticed the absence of music. I think this was the best thing to do to highlight Abby’s story.
Onto the other breakdowns, or shall I say breakthroughs? It was Face-Off Week. It's already a stressful because it's easier to lose as a team than it is to lose by yourself. Of course, all contestants laugh about it when talking to one another, but deep down they want to beat the other contestant. The added stress, I think, contributed to ramped-up emotions, but then throw in a trainer who wants to get to the root cause of your weight issues and you get last night's episode!
Amanda, I feel, was fed up. She was definitely having an off day and had the cameras not been there, I am sure she would have been okay. On the Ranch, you don’t have the option to choose when the cameras will be on you, so you just have to suck it up and get through it. Every card that Amanda could have pulled out, Jillian has heard season after season (and some of what Amanda said, I have personally told Jillian, too!)
The workout time with Jill is supposed to be hard -- it's your time to release years of pent-up anger with yourself for gaining weight and becoming a person that is just not you. Every week when you push through one grueling workout to another, you make revelations about yourself. These revelations help you make a life for yourself after Loser. I feel Shay has been making progress on every episode; she has her breakdown but when she sees the poster of her old self during the challenge and says that is no longer her, I believe her. My only concern for Shay is that she has such a long way to go and the season is only so long -- will she keep going for herself? Either way, Shay has experienced major hardships in her life and every second on that Ranch being surrounded by who understand some of her issues will help her. -- Tara Costa
Tell us: How many tissues did you go through last night?