Bachelor Jason Blogs About the Toughest Cut Yet
02/17/2009 AT 12:00 AM EST
This week Bachelor Jason Mesnick took the final three ladies -- Jillian, Molly and Melissa -- to New Zealand for the adventure of a lifetime. Breathtaking views, steamy hot tubs and taking a leap of faith were all part of the journey as Jason narrowed the field from three to two. Here is Jason's final entry for the season:
Wow - another "AMAZING" week. With all of the incredible things we were up to in New Zealand, I just kept hoping that I wasn't letting the excitement of it all affect my judgment. I knew it was entirely possible to get swept away, so it became even more important for me to keep my head on straight. That's something I was always thinking about and talking to the girls about as well.
There was no better way to see Queenstown than that incredible helicopter tour. Jillian and I were on the edge of our seats as we soared over miles and miles of beautiful landscapes, and I felt like I was sharing it with a wonderful friend.
But afterwards, the hot tub with Jillian got pretty hot, and that passion was exactly what I needed to feel with her. We knew we had built such a great friendship, but needed to see if there was something more; and obviously there was. Bungee jumping was so much fun. I have actually jumped once before, but somehow, I ended up being more nervous than Molly. As for the frightful scream, that was all me! I think that's all part of the fun, just like going on a roller coaster. There really wasn't any stalling before the jump. We got up, did our countdown and then we jumped. She had so much fun that we actually went up and did it again! It was hard to see on the show, but the rain was really coming down. I loved that Molly was so excited and willing to jump! It really showed me how adventurous she is.
Later, Molly asking me to spend the night really showed me that she was there for me and was completely opening herself up to me. I really love that Molly knows what she wants and goes after it. That is so attractive to me.
How about that catamaran with Melissa? I was really hoping we could just concentrate on us, and not her difficult hometown date. Not seeing Melissa's family was an issue, but it really was not going to sway my decision one way or the other. Family is so important, but I couldn’t base my decision solely on that. I am really glad that Melissa told me what she was feeling. I don't want anyone holding back. This process is tough enough as it is, and she said exactly what I needed to hear.
Gosh.... these rose ceremonies get so emotional for me. Some might say I am not much of a man, but I can't hold back what I am feeling. It was so tough sending Jill home; she had become my ultimate friend on this journey, and I know we will remain friends for years to come. Jill and I always talked about marrying our best friends. But, I told her that for me, it had to be way more than that. Though there was passion in our relationship (as you all saw!), it just wasn't the same passion I had with Melissa or Molly.
Next week, my family comes out to New Zealand to meet both girls. I can't wait.
Happy (belated) Valentines day to the new lady in my life and happy belated Valentines day to everyone reading this.
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