01/19/2009 at 12:00 AM EST
Bachelor Jason Mesnick
blogs about episode three, which had him trekking to the beach and Las Vegas for one-on-one dates, going on a very revealing, hands-on group date, and falling victim to a rant from a woman whom he denied a rose.
Ty was doing great this week, but to be honest, it sucked that I couldn’t be with him. I missed him more than ever at Legoland. He would've loved to be there with Stephanie
and her daughter, Princess Sophia. But, I felt it was so important to protect him from being confused or hurt during this process. I promised myself that I would not introduce Ty to any of the women until I knew I was truly falling for them. So while I was lucky enough to share this day with Steph and her Princess, I knew my little Prince is having a wonderful day at home with his Mom.
Sophia is truly amazing. We had so much fun playing on the beach. At one point she got a little carried away, slipping and bumping her face in the sand. She stood up and shook it off like the true Princess that she is. My tears were tears of joy, and they were incredibly real.
Ahhh… The Keep-A-Breast group date. I was shocked by how passionate all the girls were about giving back. Thankfully not all of them have been touched by breast cancer directly, but as women they were all connected. And I saw sides of them I hadn't gotten to see quite yet (figuratively and literally!). When Erica
jumped up to apply the baby oil on my chest, I was so flattered. I blushed a bit, but the oil did help me save a few chest hairs. (Ouch!)
Unfortunately, with the good comes the bad. I have been through this process before, so I know what it feels like to receive a rose… and what it doesn't. It starts with disappointment, but as time moves on and on, there is only more hurt involved.
It was so hard not giving Natalie
a rose. I picked it up because I wanted so badly to give it to her, but put it down because I knew I couldn't. Now I have a bit more understanding for why DeAnna
did the very same thing to me.
Yes, she called me names. And that never feels good. But everyone takes rejection in a different way and I don't blame her for how she was feeling. Natalie is a beautiful girl and will have all of Chicago waiting for her.
In the end, I've learned that it isn't always better to give than to receive. Accepting a rose always puts a smile on a woman's face. But each week, I have fewer and fewer to give. And making one woman smile may put another in tears.READ MORE: Bachelor Jason Blogs About Week 2