Biggest Loser‘s Shellay: I Now Weigh ‘In the Low 150s’
10/16/2008 AT 12:00 AM EDT
You looked sad, but not surprised, to be eliminated last night. I had that funny feeling for a few days prior to the elimination. Even the week before, we were supposed to pack everything and I had packed. My daughter kept saying, "Don't pack mom." And I said, "No Amy, it's okay. I just really have this funny feeling."
What did you talk about with Jillian last week, when you and Amy got your special day alone with her?She told me she felt like I didn't give myself enough credit for things, that I was always putting down my abilities, never acknowledging the fact of who I was and who I could be, and that I really was this great person and my potential was endless. I had to allow myself to accept those things. In my personal life I do have a problem with that. It's very hard for me to take compliments. I feel like I don't deserve it. She was trying to get through all of that and help me accept the fact there are things I can do, and not always say "I can't do it."
You've said that you wanted to go out and find a job but never had the confidence. How about now?I think I can do it. I feel so much more confident and better in every aspect of my life. I've done a lot of things as far as volunteering, I've run auctions and things. I've always wanted to do something like that or party planning.
Heba ruffled feathers when she took over the temptation and gained control of the Blue and Black teams. Was she really a control freak as Phil seemed to think?Heba did have control issues. What I regret was not eat the Reese's cup because I should have just gone for it. What better control than to make the teams? We all fell once again into Heba's thinking and let her have the control. Heba and her husband Ed, who was eliminated last week, have been winning challenges and all these questions would come up trying to lead us to do certain things and we fell into their hands a few times.
What was behind the decision to eliminate you?Phil was heavier and losing more weight than I was. I was more interested in breaking up Renee and Michelle's alliance because Michelle was such a basket case, wanting to go home. I thought If Renee goes home, Michelle's totally going to fall apart. Phil had said the same thing so we decided to vote together. I said, "Coleen please, if you vote for Renee I promise I'll never vote you out unless you're up against Amy." But she's gotta do what she's gotta do.
What kind of relationship did you have with Coleen?Shellay pauses and starts crying. I've seen that elimination a couple of times and I cry every time. Coleen and I got very close, and actually Amy said to me, "Why don't you just go move in with Coleen?" She has a great personality and what you don't see a lot on the show is I am very immature ... I have Peter Pan syndrome. And Coleen just had such a great, funny side to her too. I watched out for her. I knew it was going to be hard if she did send me home and she was -- we all were -- really upset because I love everybody on my team. But Coleen is really the one who had a special place.
How has life changed at home since leaving the ranch?It's totally different. My mother says I'm no fun anymore because I'm not doing the same things she's doing. I wake up every day and get right into workout clothes. I probably haven't had normal clothes on more than ten times. I think healthy and I think working out. I get on my clothes and there I go. My husband comes home and we work out together. He's totally shocked. We eat and we exercise. This is my new lifestyle.
There are only two guys left. Do you think another woman will win this year?Yes, I do. That's exactly what I was thinking.
What did you think of being kept on Jillian's team, with her harsh form of personal training?I actually wanted to have Jillian. She scared me to death the first week. She was yelling and I thought, "Oh my God, I don't know if I can do this." She would yell and scream and say, "Do you know how many would give their right arm to be here?" And I was thinking, "I wish I could go home!" But I'm so thankful to her because it got through to me. My family, we're not yelling . My husband and I never fight. She just got through and I thought, "Maybe that's what I've been lacking, someone to get it through my head." I'm very thankful to her.