Holloway describes being in Peru to visit the family of van der Sloot's alleged murder victim Stephany Flores Ramirez, 21, when a Dutch news crew offered her a chance to confront the suspect for the first time.
"You know you can't plan on doing something. That [opportunity] presented itself … and it was something that I felt, 'How could I not do it?' " she tells The Insider in an interview to begin airing Friday. "You know, I've traveled all this way."
Holloway reportedly visited van der Sloot for only five minutes in his Castro Castro prison cell, where the 22-year-old is awaiting trial. Van der Sloot then canceled the meeting because his lawyer was not present. Holloway's goal, she said, was to find closure – in the form of the location of her daughter's remains, to which she believes van der Sloot holds the key.
"I really felt like for me to move on, what I wanted to [do was] recover her remains," she says. "Because I was so heavy into this communication with [van der Sloot] about, you know, that he knows where her remains are."
Holloway recounts the email exchange between her and van der Sloot in the course of an alleged extortion plot, saying that he began emailing her in March with messages indicating "that he was ready, or wanting, to sell me Natalee's remains for $250,000." She says the emails went back and forth for several weeks until she decided to visit Peru.
Natalee Holloway's 24th birthday would have been this week. She was last seen alive with the young Dutchman on the Caribbean resort island of Aruba. He has publicly said several times that he killed Holloway before retracting his confessions.
Beth Holloway still doesn't have answers, and says she is left with only an idea of what happened. "I think that we all know that it was not good, the outcome for Natalee," she says.
"But it's something that you know is so important in a missing person's case is a resolution, whether it's recovery of remains … of course, everyone would love the outcome that they recover a missing loved one alive, but it just doesn't always happen that way. We know that."