07/07/2011 at 03:00 PM EDT
The idea came to Casey Anthony as she slept in jail.
"I had a dream not too long ago that I was pregnant," she wrote to another inmate. "It was like having Cays all over again."
The letter was released last year and takes on new meaning now that Casey's close to being set free: She was acquitted
Tuesday on charges she murdered her 2-year-old daughter Caylee.
"I've thought about adopting, which even sounds weird to me saying it, but there are so many children that deserve to be loved," Anthony wrote to inmate Robyn Adams at Florida's Orlando County Jail. "Let's make a deal? Let's get pregnant together?"
In the 250-plus handwritten pages, Anthony also wrote about her life behind bars and her hopes for freedom.
In one letter, she describes her desire to write, perhaps a "partial memoir … to settle many rumors and to share my insight about love, life and most important – God."
She also lists the simple pleasures of life on the outside, including manicures, pedicures, sunglasses and "underwear, that fits! Is that vain? Should I not look forward to these things?"
Anthony also hits on a question in those 2008 and 2009 musings that many are wondering now: How will she re-enter society and lead a normal life after her case
garnered such extreme public attention?
"I could use a day at Target myself," she wrote to Adams. "Just to walk around the store, to be a part of society. I want to go grocery shopping."
"If you could change your name to any name, what would it be?" Anthony asked in another letter. "I've been thinking about that a lot lately."