Bachelor Pad's Chris Bukowski Defends His Lies
08/18/2012 AT 07:00 PM EDT
The Chris on the The Bachelorette seems very different than the Chris we see on Bachelor Pad.
I definitely took a totally different approach. On Emily Maynard's season, I was there for love, was close to finding it, it didn't work out and I was heartbroken.
A little of the way I acted on Bachelor Pad was because I was hurt by that. There was only one thing on my mind – the money.
In real life, I'm not a mean guy, but I was presented the opportunity to win a lot of money so I'm going to do what it takes to win. You've got to lie and play the game. You can't be nice to everybody.
It seems hypocritical to then be mad at Ed and Kalon for lying about voting for Blakely.
You try to brush it off but it's tough because they're the only people you're seeing all day. I was angry [because] they're friends and you don't expect to be lied to by your real friends. I confront Ed about it in the next episode. But I came to the realization that these guys are trying to win and have the same right to play the game.
Why try to oust your original partner?
Our partnership fell apart. Blakely is competitive and the most athletic girl in the house, perfect from a competition standpoint, but it started not being fun for me. I don't regret being partners with Blakely, but it was a lot of work.
I felt everything going in a direction [for] someone else to win, so I tried to make a bold move, change the game and break up the main alliance.
Have you been surprised by fan reaction to your behavior?
I see where they're coming from. It doesn't look good, but people [should] differentiate the two shows. Bachelorette is a love show. Bachelor Pad is a game show and you should expect your feelings to get hurt.
If we were going to sit there and be nice, I don't know if anyone would win or even want to. We can do that on our own. We can go to someone's house and just hang out.
The way you jumped between Jamie, Blakely and Sarah is the biggest source of fan rage.
People's feelings were on the line, but I can't take it back. I can't really be sorry. I was playing a game. I separate real life from the game.
And Blakely and Jamie were a 100 percent there for the money just like I was. I wanted to be partners with Jamie but was held back by Blakely. She also didn't get along well with other girls, so I would have been voted out a lot earlier.
I honestly didn't know it was that bad for Jamie because you don't see everything, and we talked about not getting emotionally involved or wanting a show relationship. I led her on, but I denied her more than once.
It's not 100 percent my fault. She's smart. She could have realized, "Probably not the best idea for me to pursue Chris." But I feel for her and think about her every day.
Jamie finally got the courage to tell you off as she was eliminated.
I was shocked she called me out like that. To be honest, I was expecting a big hug from Jamie. I was campaigning for her to stay to make a critical move in the game.
If she'd stayed, Jamie would have been a part of the strategy next week, a new alliance [would have] formed and we'd have a majority. It didn't work and I have the biggest target on my back. It doesn't even fit on my back, it's so big.
Why pick Sarah for the date?
I thought we would have a great time and she was very neutral in the house. So strategically, and for the sake of my sanity, she was the best person to pick.
What about post-show? Can you see yourself with any of them?
Honestly I didn't feel this was the right time and place to find the girl of my dreams, but if it was me meeting [Jamie or Sarah] out sometime, no game, there could be something there.
I was attracted to Jamie. I wanted to kiss Jamie. I wasn't lying when I told her she was the most attractive girl from Ben's season. She's a great, sweet girl. Sarah is a fun, outgoing sweetheart and would fit into my group of friends perfectly.
Looking back, any regrets?
I don't regret anything because you can't really change what happened and I did it at the time because that's what I wanted to do. Hopefully, it will work out in my favor.