Kate Gosselin: Her World After Reality TV
08/14/2013 AT 08:00 AM EDT
"I'm living very carefully these days," Gosselin tells PEOPLE in its latest issue, on newsstands Friday.
Now that her TLC reality show is a thing of the past, the matriarch is making ends meet "piecing and patching together" an income from a variety of projects, she says.
For the former nurse, whose marriage to Jon Gosselin imploded on Jon & Kate Plus 8 in 2009 after a cheating scandal hit the tabloids, "To not have a reliable income is scary," she concedes.
But Gosselin is quick to absorb some of the blame herself.
"I made so many mistakes, of course," she says, admitting that her own diva-like behavior may have led to her current unemployed state.
Looking back on the heyday of her fame, and the scandal that surrounded her, "It feels like a whole other lifetime ago," she says. "And sometimes I don't even remember much of it. Both when the babies were first born and during the divorce, I was on survival mode. I feel like I've lived two lifetimes already. I'm not the same person I was ... I don't even recognize her."
For much more on Kate and the kids, pick up the latest issue of PEOPLE, on newsstands Friday