New Orleans Pelicans power forward Ryan Anderson; Gia Allemand (inset)
Gerald Herbert/AP; Inset: ABC
's boyfriend, Ryan Anderson, was brought to tears as he spoke publicly for the first time about how he was coping after her suicide
The New Orleans Pelicans forward was the one who found
the former Bachelor
star, 29, in her apartment on Aug. 12, after she hanged herself, and the Times-Picayune reports
that his grief was evident as he was interviewed Monday at a team media day.
"Every day is a challenge," he says. "It helps to be here. My family's with me. To be here with my teammates really helps a lot, but it's a roller-coaster."
Anderson performed CPR on his unconscious girlfriend before she was transported to hospital and placed on life support. She passed away two days later.
"Something like that just doesn't happen for no reason. And I know that ... there's ... a huge plan here ...," he said as he lost his composure and teared up.
Anderson explained that he's working on creating a foundation in Allemand's memory to help others battling depression and personal issues.
"A lot of people are going to be helped from this," he said. "We're in the process of starting something great for her with her family, including my family, too. We have a huge plan to do something great, great in her name that's going to help a lot of people."
Anderson's teammate Jason Smith says his friend is "doing a lot better."
"You never want to see anybody go through anything like that," he said. "He's made strides. He's always going to have something new every day. But I think he's strong enough to continue to work through it."