It was great to spend some time with no cameras. Overnight dates are the best opportunity for the women and I to get know each other as much as possible.
Watching the episodes and listening to what the girls have to say is always, obviously, surprising, because when you are in this situation, everything seems to be fine, and usually they keep to themselves. That was something that really impressed me about Andi, but I totally respect the way she approached and handled the situation.
Going into this week, I knew how difficult it was for Clare, because she had to wait a long time from her hometown visit to see me again. I was excited to see her and was hoping to have a good day with her, talking about her family and our time in Sacramento.
As she’s only been in the ocean once before, I thought it would be great to take her on a yacht and swim a little bit. On the yacht it rained a lot, so we hid a couple of times inside. During the night, we had a nice chat and I loved when she talked about how important my daughter was for me. She wasn't sure whether or not to accept a night in the fantasy suite. After talking, she agreed to spend the night together and I was glad she did.
For Andi, I wanted to go explore one of the towns in St. Lucia. I wanted to hang out with the locals and to see her in a different setting and see more of her human side. Playing the Caribbean steel drums, having some food and drinks with the kids and playing some soccer was perfect. It felt like a regular date. After playing, some weird dancers dressed up in very weird costumes came to dance for a bit, and I wish you got to see it because it was absolutely hilarious. After the waterfall, we went to the hotel and had dinner and decided that we were going to spend the night together.
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I couldn't wait to see her face when she found out what we were going to do. As soon as she saw the horses, her silent smile was contagious. I was dying for a horseback-riding date, but unfortunately you only saw two minutes of our hour-and-a-half horseback ride. We had a blast. After talking on the beach, we swam, and I found out she is a little scared of waves, which is kind of cute.
Dinner with Nikki was so easy, and I loved talking to her. She decided to spend the night with me, but before that, she dropped the “I love you.” I wasn't really expecting that, and you could see it by my reaction. As my feelings for her are not there yet, I wanted to keep quiet rather than saying something that she may have taken the wrong way. I was very pleased with my night with Nikki. I really got to know her really well.
I was surprised to see the video messages, especially Andi’s. As soon as she said that she wanted to talk to me, I thought that she was going to leave. So I was already prepared for what was to come.
Listening to her interviews shocked me, but like I said before, people feel, think and react differently to situations. The only thing I can say is that I take this process way more seriously than anyone on the other side. Andi had a hard time adjusting to this experience because she wasn’t in control, and I understood how she felt. She put words in my mouth by saying that I used the word "default." It was because of her comments in Atlanta about wanting badly to fall in love that I almost decided to bring Renee instead of her, but I followed my heart and feelings instead.
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I respect people that want to leave if they don't feel that I could be the one. In Andi's case, it’s okay. Yes, I say that a lot, but it’s my way of saying that I understand the situation and that we are here to feel for one another, and if someone is not feeling it, there is nothing else to be done. You can’t force falling in love. She argued that I had no emotions and that I didn't even know her, but I have to say that I know her as much as she knew me, and in this process, people get to know each other in only the short amount of time we have together. Does it really matter what her religion is? What color she likes? If religion was very important to one of the girls, I believe she would have told me. In Andi's case, she didn't, so I guess it was not that important to her.
Andi leaving made my decision super easy for that rose ceremony, because I didn't know what I was going to do at the time.
At the rose ceremony, I wanted to make it clear to both of the girls that if either of them had serious doubts, I was open to hearing them. I didn’t want to force them to be here if they didn’t see potential.
Next week, I have my last dates with Clare and Nikki and they will meet my family. My adventure has almost come to an end, and you will find out what my final decision is. You will see which decision I make, and what I thought was best for me and my family.
Besos a todos/Kisses to all,