01:34 PM EDT 10/22/2013
Originally posted 10/17/2013 05:00PM
Sometimes people just have a bad day. And according to Donald Glover, that's what's to blame for his recent online rant.
On Monday, the former Community actor turned musician posted a series of troubling posts on Instagram. "I feel like I'm letting everyone down. I'm afraid people hate who I really am. I'm afraid I hate who I really am," he wrote. "I've been sick this year. This is the first time I've felt helpless."
But the actor now says he was merely venting. "That night, we had a show, and then afterwards, I had this moment of feeling like, 'What's the point? Why am I even here?' " Glover told PEOPLE exclusively Wednesday. "I just wanted to write down my feelings. I definitely was just expressing myself."
Originally posted 10/16/2013 03:30PM
Community star Donald Glover has posted a series of rambling, troubling notes – all written longhand on hotel stationery – to his Instagram account, revealing, "I've been sick this year. This is the first time I've felt helpless."
The 30-year-old actor-rapper, widely considered the breakout star of the comedy, which returns to NBC for its fifth season, addressed many deep personal and professional issues in the seven letters posted Oct. 14.
"I feel like I'm letting everyone down. I'm afraid people hate who I really am. I'm afraid I hate who I really am," he wrote. "I'm afraid my parents won't live long enough to see my kids … I'm scared [my girl's] still in love with that dude."
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