12:53 PM EDT 03/16/2016
Originally posted 03/16/2016 08:30AM
The mom of three writes about parenting in her new book
Kristin Cavallari Pulls Back the Curtain on Laguna Beach: My Life Was 'Manipulated for Dramatic Effect'
Originally posted 03/15/2016 03:00PM
When Laguna Beach premiered in 2004, viewers saw high school junior Kristin Cavallari as the fun-loving, popular and sarcastic girlfriend of dreamy Stephen Colletti caught in a love triangle with protagonist Lauren Conrad.
But in her new book Balancing in Heels, Cavallari reveals that the "will they/won't they" plot between pals Colletti and Conrad was cooked up by producers – and damaging to her self-esteem.
"Filming a super-successful reality television show when you are just 17 can do a number on your conception of reality. Like many teenagers, I had no self-awareness and thought only about myself, and that was amplified by starring on Laguna Beach, where I got professional accolades for being outspoken and wild," she writes. "Being tough and rebellious felt like my real identity, and I thought I was in total control of my life. But it wasn't the whole picture. My relationships and the general ups and downs of the that time and immediately after were often manipulated for dramatic effect by TV producers or even myself. Behind the scenes, I was uncomfortable and terrified of getting hurt."
Cavallari, now 29, says she'd fake phone calls, be fed "wild lines" and film scenes out of order all in the name of must-see TV.
Kristin Cavallari on Finding Strength in Daughter Saylor After Her Brother's Death: 'I Couldn't Fall Apart – I Had a Little Baby'
Originally posted 03/15/2016 09:35AM
Kristin Cavallari's book hit shelves Tuesday
Kristin Cavallari Opens Up About Past Body Insecurities: 'I Put a Lot of Pressure on Myself to Be Thin'
Originally posted 03/15/2016 09:15AM
But in her new book Balancing in Heels, the TV host and designer reveals she was secretly battling "damaging" body image issues – and depriving herself of food for days before binging on the weekend.
"You name it, I've done it: the Zone Diet, no-carb diet, grapefruit diet. There was even one period when I would eat a block of cheese and justify it by saying I was on the Atkins diet. Ha!" she writes. "But primarily, as early as high school, I thought that depriving myself of certain foods (sweets and carbs) and limiting calories would result in the body of my dreams."
Originally posted 03/09/2016 09:00PM
"It's crazy how much your body changes," the expectant reality star says
Kristin Cavallari's Brother's Death Ruled Accidental: 'She Knew in Her Heart He Wouldn't Commit Suicide,' Source Says
Originally posted 02/10/2016 11:20AM
Michael Cavallari's cause of death has been ruled as hypothermia, the Grand County Sheriff's Office said in a statement Tuesday.
Originally posted 02/02/2016 08:40PM
Kristin Cavallari no longer takes life for granted.
Kristin Cavallari Snuggles with Saylor Following Car Accident Injury: 'First Time I've Been Able to Hold Her by Myself'
Originally posted 01/28/2016 03:25PM
Cavallari dislocated her elbow in a car accident last week
Originally posted 01/27/2016 09:40PM
Kristin Cavallari has a new lease on life.
Originally posted 01/24/2016 06:50PM
Kristin Cavallari spoke out for the first time since her car accident last week and revealed something heartbreaking.
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