03:21 PM EDT 07/06/2014
Originally posted 10/14/2008 09:30AM
Marcia, Marcia, Marcia!
Maureen McCormick got famous playing the Brady Bunch's Little Miss Perfect. But in real life, the actress was sinking into depression and drug abuse.
Now, in her new book, Surviving Marcia Brady and Finding My True Voice, she's opening up about her two abortions, her battle with cocaine addiction and her long history of clinical depression.
"[I was] hiding the reality of my life behind the unreal perfection of Marcia Brady ...," the actress, 52, writes. "No one suspected the fear that gnawed at me."
In the memoir, out Tuesday, the former Celebrity Fit Club champ also comes clean about her romance with her TV sibling Barry Williams, who played Greg Brady. They shared a kiss, but McCormick says, the "timing was never right for us."
She also chronicles her dates with Michael Jackson and Steve Martin – not to mention wild parties at the Playboy Mansion.
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