Elizabeth Taylor: Jackson Wouldn't Have Wanted Me at Memorial
07/06/2009 AT 06:30 PM EDT
"I just don't believe that Michael would want me to share my grief with millions of others. How I feel is between us. Not a public event," she writes.
Taylor, 77, one of Jackson's closest friends, says she was asked to speak at the Tuesday event at the Staples Center in Los Angeles. "I cannot be part of the public whoopla," she writes. "And I cannot guarantee that I would be coherent to say a word."
Instead, she's expressing herself in writing. "I will always love Michael from the depth of my being and nothing can separate us." And, she adds, "My love goes out to Katherine and Michael's beloved children."