Erin Andrews Says Nude Video Haunts Her Work: 'My God, Everyone in This Stadium Has Seen That Video'

updated 03/01/2016 AT 03:50 PM EST

originally published 03/01/2016 AT 01:35 PM EST

On Tuesday, sportscaster Erin Andrews testified for the second day a row in her $75 million civil suit against Marriott Nashville, saying she is still haunted by the nude video a stranger secretly filmed of her through a hotel peephole in 2008.

"I think about it every day," Andrews testified. "One of the worst thoughts I have is when I walk around a stadium ... there's always that thought, as I walk right by the stands, and I think, 'My God, everyone in this stadium has seen that video.'"

Andrews, 37, a former ESPN sportscaster who has since moved to Fox Sports, is suing the hotel. A man in an adjacent room, Michael David Barrett, secretly shot the video. Andrews contends that she would have called authorities had she known that Barrett requested a room next to hers.

"The Nashville Marriott could have just called me and said, 'We're putting this man that requested to be next to you [next door]: Is this okay?' And I could have called the cops and we could have caught him and could have stopped this," she testified.

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Erin Andrews testifies

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She said that since the video was leaked, she has struggled to regain a sense of normalcy: "I wanted to do everything to be normal again," she told the jury. "And if I could ignore [the video], maybe everybody else could."

She said that going back to work "was the only way I could push forward." She added, "It's my happiness, it's my escape."

"I feel like if I can do the top NFL game, and if I can work the World Series and pass out trophies, then people will forget. I feel like if I can go and compete on Dancing with the Stars and make it to the finale and host the show and have all these things on my plate ... people will forget ... and hopefully I will forget."

Andrews Says She's Now Nervous About Hotels

Andrews testified that she goes through an elaborate safety protocol whenever she checks into hotels, including staying in a different room from one in which she's pre-booked and telling hotel staff that there's a man staying with her, even if that's not true. She says she never stays in a room with an adjoining room and never lets hotel staff go into her room.

"I will not allow anyone to bring my bags up for me," she testified. "I cover the peephole. I look for lights, cameras."

On Monday, Barrett, a former delivery truck driver, testified that his motivation for shooting the video was financial and that he was "not proud" of what he did.

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Erin Andrews walks into the courtroom Tuesday afternoon

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Andrews Says Video Has Impacted Her Relationships

Andrews briefly testified about her relationship with her boyfriend, NHL player Jarret Stoll.

"I feel sad because I think [Jarret] would have loved the girl more that was there before this happened and I feel very guilty about that," she said.

"He didn't know me before this happened and [it's hard] to try to explain to someone that has questions about why I have trust issues, why I'm insecure, why I'm humiliated, why I'm embarrassed, why I'm obsessive about checking the internet," Andrews said tearfully.

She said the video has made her feel self-conscious when it comes to dating. "[Men] just want an easy girl. They want a girl where they don't have drama. I have drama."

Andrews told the court that she plans to have children in the future, but she worries about explaining the video to her children and grandchildren. "What happens when my kids come home from school and they're saying, 'Mom, kids are saying you're naked on the internet?'" she testified.

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Andrews: ESPN Told Her to Do Interview Before Returning to Work

On Monday, Andrews testified that before anyone was arrested in the case, many media members speculated Andrews herself had arranged the video as a publicity stunt.

"Probably for three months, everybody thought it was a publicity stunt," Andrews testified. "That ripped me apart."

She said her bosses at ESPN, her former employer, told her she needed to address the video publicly before returning to work.

"Because there wasn't an arrest, because we didn’t know where this happened, my bosses at ESPN told me, 'Before you go back on-air for college football, we need you to give a sit-down interview.' And that was the only way I was going to be allowed back," she testified.

Andrews testified that initially, ESPN "was highly recommending it to be [Good Morning America], because ESPN and ABC are the same."

She said, "I didn't want to do it, I didn't want to be a part of it." She ultimately decided to go on Oprah Winfrey's show, citing the fact that Winfrey has spoken out publicly about being sexually assaulted in her youth.
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