While Bethenny Frankel and Jason Hoppy aren't scheduled to return to divorce court for a few more weeks, the reality-star-turned-talk-show-host has been giving a lot of thought to how far apart she and her ex have drifted.
At the time of the split, Frankel released a statement in which she said that she and Hoppy hoped to "amicably co-parent" their daughter Bryn, who turns 3 next month.
Now, in an exclusive interview with PEOPLE, Frankel says she can see that's going to be a challenge.
"I really did think it would be amicable. I absolutely did," she says. "I wrote that entire statement myself. And every single word, I believed to be true."
Bethenny Frankel documented her marriage to Jason Hoppy on television – and now she's opening up about her divorce on television, too.
"I can't just only be on reality TV and show everything when it's fairy princess, fairytale, and then not take my hits when I have to," she says on Wednesday's The Ellen DeGeneres Show. "Just going through something personal you have so many different emotions, and I feel like a bit of a disappointment to all of you. And, I feel like a failure."
"You are not a disappointment. You are not a failure," DeGeneres says.
It's business as usual for Bethenny Frankel.
After filing for divorce from husband Jason Hoppy a few days earlier, the Skinnygirl mogul took her beloved dog, Cookie, for a walk in New York's Tribeca neighborhood on Sunday.
Bundled up in a down jacket and boots, Frankel, 42, shielded her face with sunglasses as she strolled down the street with her pup trailing behind her.
Though Bethenny Frankel has made her mark in the entertaining world of reality shows, her daughter will not be following in her footsteps if she has anything to do with it. In fact, she calls the idea “traumatizing.”
So what will the new mom do if Brynn, who was born in May, grows up and tells her she wants to be on a reality show?
“I will kill somebody,” Frankel said jokingly at the East Harlem Target store opening Tuesday. “Not her, but I will kill somebody.”
Frankel did say it depended what kind of reality show it was, pondering the idea of a show like Bethenny Getting Married?, where she says you’re supposed to be “really, totally honest and be yourself.” But then she quickly dismissed the idea all together, hoping that it is something she will never have to worry about.
“By the time she grows up,” said Frankel, “there won’t be even be reality shows.”
She walked down the aisle and said, "I do," but Bethenny Frankel's wedding didn't go off without any hitches – and it almost didn't happen with her wedding planner, Shawn Rabideau.
Recalling their showdown at the hair salon, Rabideau says the reality star was like a "Dementor from Harry Potter. You know, those specters that suck the life out of you?"
All joking aside, "I felt beat down," he tells PopEater. "For a fleeting, like, half a second, I thought about saying 'forget it.' But you know what? I wasn't giving up and I knew I could do this and I was going to work my butt off and do an amazing job."
Bethenny Frankel isn't the only one in the family who needs therapy.
On Thursday's episode of Bethenny Getting Married?, the NYC Housewife took her pup Cookie to a dog behaviorist. "I'm thinking I've messed up my dog,” the pregnant bride-to-be said. "What kind of mother am I going to be?"
Like she did in the premiere episode, Frankel also caught up with her shrink – and her upcoming wedding and her family (or lack thereof) were the topics of conversation. "I'm just a tough person," she said. "It's hard for me to fall in love with someone."
So who's next in line to see the doctor? It's a toss-up between her wedding planner and her intern, who were both struggling to do their jobs. Maybe the cast of Bethenny Getting Married? can get a group rate. –Alison Schwartz
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